So sorry for the way I had to leave you
You’ll never visit me again in my cell.
We never found that middle place where I could meet you
Over time I realized I had to go meet myself.

One glance in the mirror
I don’t have to see
When my eyelids shut you out, I’m gone.
When I pulled that trigger
I learned that I could be
A design to desire, and believe.

You held my neck too tight
For the fear to devolve.
I had doubts about that - maybe you could feel them.
Oh well.

I can’t think big when you see small, so small
If I seem separate from where you left me,
Well, you can bet I am…

If I’m tolerating handguns to my forehead,
Unloaded, but still painful to feel.
I’m used to crowning queens until they’re naked
When she nor I are ready to reveal.

Still feel your fingers on my shoulders
I was a soldier for you, you were a nurse for me.
Wounds hurting all the time, you invited me in,
It was all I could do to not rob the infirmary.

We’re just people
And I’m dividing scared and sacred 100,000 ways.
We can be so evil
And I’d appreciate if you don’t forgive me
Cause nothing at this point would be considered foul play.

(((Stuff it all away, my heart’s conviction
A sacred place we both held dear
No one’s taken your place, no testimony
To explain the truth of your greatest fears.)))

You held my neck too tight
For the fear to devolve.
I had doubts about that - maybe you could feel them.
Oh well.
I can’t think big when you see small, so small
Baby, I can’t explain your greatest fears.